1. |
Vindicta
03:12
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Stepping up my game
Setting fire to my old self
I reload then I aim
All my ops are feeling unsafe
A never ending flame
Ain't nobody gonna break it
I will never submit
Your throat I'm gonna slit it
I've been stuck inside a pit
I been told that I should quit
But it's only the beginning
Look at me now Imma kill it
Slow and steady
Imma grab it
Cause I own it
They broke me
Imma break em back
You're gonna choke on my nut sack
Stepping up my game
Setting fire to my old self
I reload then I aim
All my ops are feeling unsafe
A never ending flame
Ain't nobody gonna break it
I will never submit
Your throat I'm gonna slit it
I've been stuck inside a pit
I been told that I should quit
But it's only the beginning
Look at me now Imma kill it
Slow and steady
Imma grab it
Cause I own it
They broke me
Imma break em back
You're gonna choke on my nut sack
I've been treated like a weak
Always been afraid to speak
I will never need their trust
Cause I trust in me
I've been treated like a weak
Always been afraid to speak
I will never need their trust
Cause I trust in me
I've been solo
Staying solo
Cause their presence are like hollowed
I'm tired of this disguise
Evolving in my true form
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2. |
Utopia
03:34
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I won't listen anymore
So please don't waste my time
We all know that life's a chore
We're working overtime
I'm so sick of missing out on my own fucking life
All these voices in my head just end up in a strife
Please don't try to get in the way
I don't want to hurt
Threw away my thoughts and problem deep inside my heart
I can't break the cage that locks me inside of my head
I just understood that i'll feel better when I'm dead
I'm alone now
Don't knock on my door now
I won't respond, no
I'm not gonna look back
I'm alone now
Don't knock on my door now
I won't respond, no
I'm not gonna look back
It's time for us to put some distance
Cause we knew that our relationship was toxic
Mixing alcohol with it, made us nothing more but sicker
I was stuck on the liquor
And your hands on the trigger
You just shot at my heart and it got clearer
That being with you in the first place was an error
You are paralyzed
Why so terrorized?
Did the last words that I told you got you mesmerized?
I'm alone now
Don't knock on my door now
I won't respond, no
I'm not gonna look back
I'm alone now
Don't knock on my door now
I won't respond, no
I'm not gonna look back
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3. |
Aisuru
03:54
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As I burn all these memories
In my trash bag
I'm dancing in the dark
And I start to weep
As I lay in my bed
I'm afraid of the night
Afraid I'm not waking up and there's nobody by my side
And I fall into the abyss
Created by my brain
The loneliness that surrounds me makes me suffocate
I wish I could find the place that I've been looking for
And I wish to never feel this emptiness anymore
I've been on my own for the longest
I've been waiting to finally get some rest
Walking down the road all alone
Hell is everywhere
Hell is everywhere
I've been avoiding these drugs all along
I don't have any tastes on my tongue anymore
I haven't felt anything for a long time
I think I'm just numb now
I've been waiting for a sign
It never came up to my eyes
And I feel so numb
And I feel so dead
There's a big sun outside
But it's cloudy in my head
Got nowhere to run
Got nowhere to hide
Watching the rain fall as I cry
Got nowhere to stay
Got nowhere to heal
I've been waiting for a sign
It never came up to my eyes
And I feel so numb
And I feel so dead
There's a big sun outside
But it's cloudy in my head
Got nowhere to run
Got nowhere to hide
Watching the rain fall as I cry
Got nowhere to stay
Got nowhere to heal
I've been waiting for a sign
It never came up to my eyes
And I feel so numb
And I feel so dead
There's a big sun outside
But it's cloudy in my head
Got nowhere to run
Got nowhere to hide
Watching the rain fall as I cry
Got nowhere to stay
Got nowhere to heal
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4. |
Venenum / Devotio
04:02
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I'm nowhere to be find
Been years I resigned
Neglecting my pride
And in case I just hide
Everybody's eating and dying
Follow the process
I can't think by myself
So I think like the mass
Nonsense
No more kindness in the mind of anybody
We just worry about everything like everybody
No more peace, it never lasted anyway
We gave blood for a change in this world
Just wasted
We live in nonsense
We killed for prosperity
We're ruining ourselves
Everyday
We are closer to the end
We live in nonsense
We killed for prosperity
We're ruining ourselves
Everyday
We are closer to the end
Don't care
Can't hear
I cry
They vanished
And left me behind
Nobody is here
No signs
Threw away like a corpse
And I rot
All alone
On my own
I die
Memories are nowhere to be found
I burned everything this night
Vanishing as well I might
Don't care
Can't hear
I cry
They vanished
And left me behind
Nobody is here
No signs
Threw away like a corpse
And I rot
All alone
On my own
I die
Memories are nowhere to be found
I burned everything this night
Vanishing as well I might
Don't care
Can't hear
I cry
They vanished
And left me behind
Nobody is here
No signs
Threw away like a corpse
And I rot
All alone
On my own
I die
Memories are nowhere to be found
I burned everything this night
Vanishing as well I might
Don't care
Can't hear
I cry
They vanished
And left me behind
Nobody is here
No signs
Threw away like a corpse
And I rot
All alone
On my own
I die
Memories are nowhere to be found
I burned everything this night
Vanishing as well I might
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5. |
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Perceiving the void
In it, I jump
Distorted thoughts inside my cranium
Making it harder to reflect
In this mess
That I created by myself
Mud to the legs
And it's holding me back in the obscure
I did it to myself
Denaturing all these emotions
I tear em out
Wow
I saw someone jumping from a building
A man that decided to use the rest of his life
To paint on on the ground
A message to the world
I thought it was very inspiring
And then I saw his face
I recognized myself
I lost all kind of strength
I stepped back
Fell into the mud
Slowly covered, panicking
Shutting down my eyes
I inhale
Never wanted nonsense just friends
This amends for my shortcomings
And let's play pretend
It gets fucked up in the rear view
Story teller in your ears too
Talk a lot and can't feel you
432 need peeled to
Fill the mirror with my fears
For long year after year
I quit shaking off the uh
I quit thinking when im here
Can't have far
Can't have near
When I'm numb and don't steer
Avoidant of my peers
Want revenge for the tears
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6. |
Embryo (feat. Dytenna)
04:16
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I've ran away
Suppressed the pain
And now im wandering
I've lost my place
Inside the dark I stay
Inside the dark I lay low
Inside the dark I sit alone
Inside the dark I pray
I feel like an embryo
Stuck in the amniotic fluid
As big as an ocean
My head makes me claustrophobic
I feel like an embryo
Stuck in the amniotic fluid
As big as an ocean
My head makes me claustrophobic
Inside the dark I stay
Inside the dark I lay low
Inside the dark I sit alone
Inside the dark I pray
Inside the dark I stay
Inside the dark I lay low
Inside the dark I sit alone
Inside the dark I pray
Being reborn
Suffocation striking fast it's a "gnat scorn"
I tell myself to stop it willpower worn
Out on my hips and rips I got within my grips of mind shifts that swarm
Heading to the horizon tearing off thorns
I had for years. Tryna tear off all these norms
Does it matter what I got on your own views?
I trust I'm inclined to fall more towards dues that
I dont have to pay what I "owe" I fuse together that I dont owe shit
Refuse obligation that drags us down so loose to our ends that we don't wanna meet and use
I'll break my core to reinforce being reborn as an embryo
I'm back better and not torn
I feel like an embryo
Stuck in the amniotic fluid
As big as an ocean
My head makes me claustrophobic
I feel like an embryo
Stuck in the amniotic fluid
As big as an ocean
My head makes me claustrophobic
I feel like an embryo
Stuck in the amniotic fluid
As big as an ocean
My head makes me claustrophobic
And I break my breath
And takes the steps
To mend the pleading pleads of my wits
To bet, I just need liberosis and ferocious threats
To make time for my plans
I aim to set apart this little time I'd sure forget
Whatever means makes me be reckless, get me through the anxiety of futile death
I wanna live with why's
Not die with regret
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7. |
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I've been feeling down
Since you became a spectrum
Every day without you on my side
I've been numb
My mind is dumb
Being disconnected from
Present time does really taste like venom
It's hard to swallow
That you've been so shallow
You left with something that belongs to me
Now I just feel hollow
It's hard to swallow
That you've been so shallow
You left with something that belongs to me
Now I just feel hollow
It's been so hard to get sleep
I could barely fuckin' eat
You've been crying on your side
I've been dying on my side
Forgetting about our memories
Erasing everything that I feel
Constantly living in misery
Indulging us this purgatory
Sometimes I don't know
If I'm better or worse
Sometimes I swear
That I'm cursed
Other times
It feels like I can fly
Didn't take pills
But I'm still high
Maybe I missed it when the sun came out
Or maybe it's myself that i'm too concerned about
I really don't know
Sometimes I think that it's my fault
I
Sometimes
Think that I should've called the cops
I get really pissed
Because I don't know how
To separate you from me now
At night I don't have dreams
In fact I have a hard time getting sleep
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8. |
For Astrid
02:06
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I've been crying in the dark alone, more than enough
I've been contemplating suicide more than just once
I'm sorry I can't do much more to release your pain
I'm sorry I can't do much more, but hear you complain
You can't express yourself correctly, but I feel your heart
You're bathed in this stress, but it won't let you get out
Your crying cause you can't explain this pain that you got
Pop and mom are dead, they think that they're not doing enough
Whatever people will say to you, I'll be by your side
I will never let you down, even if sometimes it's hard
Even if I'm in despair to see you drowning alive
I will protect you and you will live a beautiful life
Beautiful life
Beautiful life
Beautiful life
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9. |
Sine Dolore / Omit
02:47
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I forgot how to talk to people normally
Fuck conformity
I used to open up to everyone surrounding me
And then I lost the key
I watch the ceiling and it's endless
I can hear the sound of their distress
Always used to all of my excesses
I don't remember exactly what silence is
Sorry I will never be like what you wanted me to be
Another fantasy
I've been forgetting reality with all these fever dreams
Deaf from all those screams
I'm bleeding but it became painless
Most of the friends I had were faithless
I wish I didn't throw away my kindness
Guess I will always stay as faceless
I've been going around in circles
It's a constant rehearsal
Searching happiness is universal
But remember it's never eternal
I've been going mad and I hate it
I've been feeling dizzy for a bit
Taking pills will never get it fixed
Taking pills will never get it fixed
I get I get it
I'm begging for a click
I hope that it comes quick
If it feels repressive, then I kick it
Too much that I omit
If it feels repressive, then I kick it
And I'll kill it
And I'll kill it
I've been going around in circles
It's a constant rehearsal
Searching happiness is universal
But remember it's never eternal
I've been going mad and I hate it
I've been feeling dizzy for a bit
Taking pills will never get it fixed
Taking pills will never get it fixed
I get I get it
I'm begging for a click
I hope that it comes quick
If it feels repressive, then I kick it
Too much that I omit
If it feels repressive, then I kick it
And I'll kill it
And I'll kill it
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10. |
Discidium (feat. MCH6)
03:02
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I think we went too far
And I can't fucking cope
Drank so much that I couldn't get up from the floor
The benefits are far too rare
Yeah bitch I am so aware
I'm currently shedding my flesh
To keep it busy I refresh
Demons talking in my brain
A dialect I can't explain
Feelings always out of place
Cooped up, yeah I'm out of space
Everybody wants me to be replaced
Like that one guy that I defaced
That piece of shit was just a waste
Yeah, I know
I'm well aware
These bitches can talk but I won't care
Always trynna fucking compare
I'm in real need of fresh air
Yeah, I know
I'm well aware
These bitches can talk but I won't care
Always trynna fucking compare
I'm in real need of fresh air
Yeah, I know
I'm well aware
These bitches can talk but I won't care
Always trynna fucking compare
I'm in real need of fresh air
Yeah, I know
I'm well aware
These bitches can talk but I won't care
Always trynna fucking compare
I'm in real need of fresh air
Wassup with them muhfuckin stats
Who cares what the bitches gon chat
Who cares, we're not on their map
Drinking too much yes, I'm boutta relapse
Demons in my head all they do is interact
Fuck that having beforehand
Boutta cut that shit
Boutta cut that lock
Killing the microphone
Better drop, better drop alone
So sorry, but I can't condone the countdown, but it's still on my phone
Fuck this place I don't belong to
How disown?
I'm unknown
Fuck these feelings yeah, fuck this show
24/7, 20 4 The love
24/7, 20 My plus
24/7, Bullets to my head
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11. |
Pastel
03:00
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How long has it been now
Since I've last saw you
Life has been on pause
And I turned down the volume
I can't hear my own thoughts
My brain became soundproofed
A screen full of dots
But this came out very rude
Everything changed
But I don't have any fucking control
Nothing is the same
We both aged well
I walk without any goal
My innocence stained
I had to learn how to recover my confidence
But today it rains
My wounds bled again
Maybe that's the consequence
We walked on the same path for a while
Now we are both strangers
On my own I walked for miles
To just feel so empty
Maybe I do miss her
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12. |
Unmei (feat. COMA6)
03:50
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Always here where you can't catch me
The fire was about to knock at my door
Listening to her lies felt like drowning in the sea
We couldn't get along with each others anymore
She was eating up my flesh
A monster hides behind her dress
I broke my neck over her case
I can't forget about her face
And everything I've done for us just went up in the flames
I was way too tired to lose so much to her games
Now that I remember did she ever feel ashamed
About all the pain she made me feel, she was the one to blame
Two souls do not divide the pain
It's a burden that remain
A sweet poison in our vein
We are bound to fate by chains
Your fear is mine, we can't restrain
A cry of help would be in vain
There are no words to explain
We are bound to fate by chains
Heart beating out my chest
I don't wanna see what's next
Can you get it through my head
Through my head
I would pin it to my flesh
If it meant that I could rest
Just a moment in my bed
In my bed
Static in my bones again
Break me to my woes
Feel it press my lungs again
I can breathe no more
Two souls do not divide the pain
It's a burden that remain
A sweet poison in our vein
We are bound to fate by chains
Your fear is mine, we can't restrain
A cry of help would be in vain
There are no words to explain
We are bound to fate by chains
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13. |
Kemuri (feat. D'Haelo)
03:21
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If I remember well
I was trying to escape
I took the wip
Then I drove onto the highway
I crashed the whip
Black hole
Rolling over and over and over into the void
Opening my eyes
Can't feel anything
Getting out the car
Can't feel anything
Looking at the car
Dismembered body
Guts out
Hanging from the windshield
Head crushed by the wheels
Blood mixed with the gasoline
When I think about the things that I regret
I just understood that it was way too late
I'm leaving all of this behind
The fire took everything down
The black smoke is all that is left
It's time to fly away
Away from here
I could have faced the truth, I was way too scared
I took down all the hopes and just ran away
On the other hand, I felt like I hit the nail on the head
Step on the gas, the haste never made waste
I could have faced the truth, I was way too scared
I took down all the hopes and just ran away
On the other hand, I felt like I hit the nail on the head
Step on the gas, the haste never made waste
I press on the pedal, nobody can save me
Can save me
Why cry when it all don't matter no more?
That's it for the plans, I finally let go
Erase them all from my bucket list
Fuck all of this, I've got no trust to exist
Life's a bitch with a pleasure to cut some wrists
Inadequate, inadequate on the wall, don't wanna conversate
Maybe nights save me from taunts, but it doesn't get better on the day
Never wanted to be stuck with a 9-5 for the mental's sake
All I wanted was to build up a career
It ain't that weird yet I've crashed on this place right here
It wasn't cause of my family, it wasn't cause of my friends
It was all because my own path would never have an end
I could have faced the truth, I was way too scared
I took down all the hopes and just ran away
On the other hand, I felt like I hit the nail on the head
Step on the gas, the haste never made waste
I could have faced the truth, I was way too scared
I took down all the hopes and just ran away
On the other hand, I felt like I hit the nail on the head
Step on the gas, the haste never made waste
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14. |
Slowpace!
03:02
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I'm tired, I'm tired, but I really cannot stop right now
I'm focused I'm focused on making better my life now
I've been lost and I need to build up some confidence so tell me how
How can I rebuild my trust without you now?
I'm tired, I'm tired, but I really cannot stop right now
I'm focused I'm focused on making better my life now
I've been lost and I need to build up some confidence so tell me how
How can I rebuild my trust without you now?
They say reminiscing bout an old memory is worthless
I've been silent for weeks
I hate it when the devil speaks
They always think of the worse inside
With a smile on the surface
It's making me nervous
I just pace around my room thinking that I'm getting somewhere
I want to travel this world non-stop starting from there
Never been a people person always calmer on my own
In the night time I can't stand the thought of being all alone
On my own, all alone
It's so hard to find the right pace
I've been running out of ideas
Only me and this phone
Will I ever find the right place?
My anxiety always increases
I'm tired, I'm tired, but I really cannot stop right now
I'm focused I'm focused on making better my life now
I've been lost and I need to build up some confidence so tell me how
How can I rebuild my trust without you now?
I'm tired, I'm tired, but I really cannot stop right now
I'm focused I'm focused on making better my life now
I've been lost and I need to build up some confidence so tell me how
How can I rebuild my trust without you now?
I'm tired, I'm tired, but I really cannot stop right now
I'm focused I'm focused on making better my life now
I've been lost and I need to build up some confidence so tell me how
How can I rebuild my trust without you now?
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15. |
An Ode to Acceptance
05:35
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Theo France
Born in 2002 , Theo Mexmain, alias "/:faceless_humanoid" is an artist hailing from France. He makes music to express the feelings and the emotional baggage that he carries through rough personal experiences. Getting inspiration from weird, emotional, and industrial sounds, and various types of music, he strives to express his music in a very unique way through different styles. ... more
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